There’s a Time and a Place…

i wish you didn’t sounds so lost…and lonely, and i wish that i could hold you, just for the night, like a spirit, so that when your alone and at your most lonely, you have someone there with you through the dark bits, so you can be strong when the light wakens you. i wish that somehow I could make your voice sound less strained, and tell you that its ok for you to call for a minute, because all i wanted to hear was your voice, and to know that you are ok, and i wish somehow that I was brave enough to tell you all of this, and to make life as painless as possible, because thats all i want, is to take the hurt away from you…and love you, because in the end i just want you to be ok…

Sometimes when the lights are down
and I can feel your heart beating against
mine i understand what it is to be alive.
When i look into your eyes i drown slightly
because there is so much to fall into,
and i stop breathing for a slight moment
because you look so beautiful.
I wish that life didn’t throw you any
bad days when you need my arms around you,
but you know that when it does I right there
to cast my body against yours and not move
until that smile that halters my heart is back.

I wish I knew those words to make the sun
Not disappear though I know that those
Clouds needed to descend just a little to
Protect you from the world that seems
To hurt you with its changing tides.

I wish I knew the ways that I could help
To make that smile appear for a moment
Then at least its one more smile to help
Those around you see a glint of blue
Through the mass of grey around.

I wish I knew a story that would make
This truth not hurt so that your image
Of him could forever be with smiling
Laughter around a different world than
The one that you are facing now.

I wish that I could travel in time to make
It to your side so that you had a hand
To hold and a hug to immerse yourself
Into when the tears won’t stop falling
And the breath you try to catch falls short.

I wish with all of my being that I could
Be anything but me right now because
I might be able to help, but if you take this
And feel some love then my part at
Least for now is done.

I could feel your hands around my stomach
Trailing shivers like an ice cube trails melted
Drips across the surface to the glass delicate
In motion much like the tiny flickers that you
Make with your fingers as you wake me.

I could feel your breath across the nape of my
Neck sending pulses of cool air across me
Down to my toes so that those delicate hairs
That cascade our necks stand up to attention
Like soldiers ready to fight a battle of wits.

I could feel my heart racing as my eyes fluttered
Open delicately to the new days light streaming
Over my body with which I could feel you so
Close to me that as I turn over I find air.

July 3, 2006